What is it that makes a women naturally desire to love and cuddle, and raise a little sweet child? Why is it that the Lord gave us the desire to nuture so strongly? Today I held a baby again and that feeling...you know that feeling deep inside you that wants another. It's not a feeling of envy or jealousy but a feeling of wanting to give your entire being for another person, to give all your love to another child, the feeling of fullfillment.
Even in the midst of anxiety, fear, sadness, or whatever I feel most days, that desire to have another bundle of joy in my life is there. Perhaps the way that that bundle may arrive someday might be different that how E joined us, but none the less, each and every child gives me that feeling deep down.
And it is hard to wait.